My life is a drama-filled-stress-inducing-exhausting-never-ending-shit-show.
Middle daughter is caught up in this little traveling street vending crew, although she is making some cash, she's leaving her daughter who is only 2 (about to turn 3)...I'm so afraid for this kid, her father has some mental issues and he and my daughter were like the worst mix ever....and sadly my daughter just doesn't seem to have that full motherly connection with this kid. She is the most amazing, funny, wonderful kid ever and how any Mom could leave this kid for weeks at a time is fucking beyond me. It hurts my heart. Jacqui left for a month last time, home for a couple weeks and now gone for another week. I want to cry for this little girl, she's pure joy and her own mother is not feeling it the way she should/could. I don't know what to do, this kid deserves so much more than she will ever get from either of her parents.
Lil' Amy...spent the week, exhausted....but, happy, she is so much fun to be around, so silly, so full of imagination and fun and joy...got her a big-girl-bed this week and she seems to be getting used to it. This is just such an amazing age, such fun, gahd, she makes me happy. I wish I could spend more time with her!
Cass - my youngest...15 going on forever...meeting with the school on Friday again to deal with her grades, behavior, etc....they're doing a bunch of testing and I'm sure it will turn out that this kid is so much smarter than she ever believed. I wish I could reach her, she is such an amazing kid, but, she has no clue and has trapped herself in this little "bad-ass" personality and cannot seem to escape it...so much potential, so much to offer........I so hope she finds it.
I'm sad, so tired, so stressed with work and finances...I just want life to give me a fucking break for once, I'm tired of fighting, tired of struggling, tired of trying...yeah..
